twenty-thirteen :: the year started with me over-reacting and wanting to throw it all away. taking down my photography website and being “done”. i felt overwhelmed, conflicted, and completely creatively burned. i was close to wanting nothing to do with it. so we pulled the reins in. i took barely any new clients. i spent energy making a physical office for my photography so i could close the door and not acknowledge it. we hung wall-paper, set up a new desk, painted… and still i wanted barely anything new. but the year went along. and i began to feel little energy coming back after each shoot. i started feeling creatively inspired again by new ventures, and by seeing returning clients come back i hadn’t seen in a year. the faithful group that makes me feel valued as a photographer. and the year went on. the office became used and messy quickly. the shoots started piling up. i hired an assistant. i photographed many… i created over a thousand holiday cards. i created thousands and thousands of images. and oh my. what a year. from despair to abundance. i thought it would be interesting for my own sake to look back at some of the shoots i did. and started pulling images, without over-analyzing. and i watched as the year progressed how full it became. now if by the end of this post you feel like you’re gonna explode, my apologies. but that is sometimes how i feel. a little bit exploding with the abundance of photos, but also exploding with gratitude at the beauty, the relationships, the love i photograph. please allow some music to accompany the journey (you’ll need it). some lively music (added above). ”many days, fell away with nothing to show… the walls kept tumbling down… but if you close your eyes, doesn’t it almost feel like nothing changed at all… like you’ve been here before. now i’m beginning to be an optimist about this. now i’m beginning to be an optimist about this.”
so here we go. between one and a small handful from each photoshoot this year… separated by season.
tired and inspired all in the same breath.
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